February 3, 2010

Change, Change, Change

“Everybody thinks of changing humanity and nobody thinks of changing himself.”-Leo Tolstoy.

Change, Change, Change. “The only thing in life that is constant is change”

“I can’t change others, only myself or my reactions to others”

Today is my birthday. It is not just any birthday. I am turning 40. I guess I thought that I would feel different about turning 40 but so far it doesn’t feel any different than turning 30. Well, except that I am 25 lbs. or so…..heavier. I definitely have a lot harder time losing those unwanted pounds than I did at 30. That doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying. It’s just going to take a lot more effort to achieve a healthy weight for my body. I really love to bake (…ummmm pie) and eat. I just need to eat smaller portions of what I normally eat. Really people, are you really going to not eat sugar or flour or butter for the rest of your life like some of those special diets suggest. Certainly not ME. The bottom line of any weight loss Endeavour is to take in less calories/fuel than you burn. So moderation and more movement is the key for me. There you have it-change number 1.

Why are some people so brutally cruel? Holy cow, whatever happened to honest communication? Why can’t you just say to someone-“hey, that something you did or said really hurt me or made me angry” or whatever feeling it caused? Or maybe “I don’t understand what you are doing?” Could you explain to me your position on that? My sinful human nature wants to lash out and say or write hurtful remarks back, but….then that would be no different than what they are doing. Then I came across a couple of scriptures.

James 3:8-10
but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With the tongue we praise out Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God’s likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
So, change number 2 for me will be-to change my perspective:

2 Timothy 2:23-26
don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.

James 3:18
And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.

Man, I don’t feel like making peace but God certainly knows that I need to learn about righteousness. So, until the Holy Spirit says otherwise, I will be sowing peace.

Those, dear reader, are the first couple of changes that I will be working on as I enter my 41st year. I have many more, I am sure, to work on.

But for today this is my start.


  1. Kim, you are priceless. I should have read this right when you said Corey hit publish for you. Then maybe you wouldn't have had to listen to my tirade about the situation that is so public but not. My apologies for hindering your change.

    Do you know much about Leo Tolstoy's life? He made a huge change in his life rather midstream, in his forties, he lost a lot of friends because he no longer aspired to the life he once led as a privileged artist.

  2. You are a gem. How my life is richer for your company.

    Anne and I were singing "Loch Lomond" and about high roads and low roads and I tink of ye fair lassie takin' ta high rrroad an askin' Chrrrist to be makin' yurrr way. Bless ye fer dat. Ahh, me.